Tuesday, January 31, 2012

ok, i surrender

The past couple weeks I have been having a hard time with surrender. As much as I wanted to lay everything down at the altar, I just couldn't let go. As much as it sounds good to say “yeah, I trust the Lord” I knew I couldn't make that statement in complete honesty. What it comes down to is I might not trust Gods heart towards me. That if I really surrender I might not like what comes next.
So maybe if I get down on my knees, then I'll feel it. Nope. I got up and wondered why did it used to be so easy just to give it all. Then I got a text from a friend (who btw has no idea what is going on in my life). The text says...have you surrendered every part of you? Literally right after I got up. One of those moments that you know God is totally in all this. So I'm like great, God's totally letting me know he's there and I'm still fighting letting go.
In worship the following day I started to realize that surrender sometimes is like forgiveness. You might not feel it, but it is a choice. Yield your heart to surrender even though there are no warm fuzzy feelings to go along with it. Choose to surrender even when there is a pull that is saying no the other way is better. Choose to surrender even if you don't feel like it. Choose to surrender even if what comes next might be uncomfortable. Choose to surrender your will and your dreams and your desires and experience PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING.

He leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Psalm23

Take delight in the lord, and he will give you your heart's desires. Psalm37

For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. Zephaniah3:17

Perf song!  Thanks Judy!  Love kari and her sweet anointing!



Monday, January 23, 2012

dude, i made my own clif bars!!


1/2 cup almond butter
2/3 cup unsweetened applesauce
3/4 cup date paste (blend 1 cup pitted dates with 1/4 cup water)
1/2 cup ground flax seed
2 cups oats
1 cup raisins
1/4 cup unsweetened coconut
splash of vanilla

1/4 cup walnut flour ( put walnuts in blender and blend to flour consistency)
1/4 cup almond four (put almonds in blender and blend to flour consistency)

Mix all ingredients in large mixing bowl.  Shape into balls or squares.  Add more applesauce if to dry or more flour if to wet.  Place into freezer (at least 1/2 hour) to firm up and Enjoy!

Random Notes: 
~You can add more or less of whatever ingredients! 
~Dates are a great sugar substitute and the left over paste can be stored in the fridge for a couple weeks. 
~Yay for making almond flour, after the initial fail :)  I'm pretty pumped about that! 
~You can buy flax seed ground.  I bought some at Fresh in the self serve section and ground my own, the bag was 10 cents! 
~Shape them into whatever size.  Bite size for a quick snack!



Sunday, January 22, 2012

a quest for health

I want to tell you about my new quest for better health. It's a pretty common goal and there are a million voices grabbing for your attention on the subject. The word 'diet' sends me running and immediately tune out whatever follows, generally. They all seem to promote weight loss, muscle gain, and now more commonly performance enhancement, healing and disease prevention. No carb, low carb, high protein, low fat, good fats and bad fats, no sugar, no sodium, no dairy, grain free or just gluten-free, organic, soy or no soy and the list goes on.
People are so unique and have different needs and goals. I'm asked often for help with food plans, and find most are just uneducated on nutrition. An exception would be the cases where health issues have forced a major diet change, then there is more knowledge and awareness. Also, culture and environment play a big role in what people daily feed on. The past week I have spent a good about of the time in the grocery store, and health food stores, reading and researching. I'm overloaded and have learned more in the past two weeks possibly than in four years of college. College did teach my how to dig for information and test my sources. I'm for sure not a nutritionist, but I have studied nutrition on the surface. It's important and will impact results drastically. Personal training and diet go hand in hand. My own personal story of recovery from an eating disorder and learning to have a healthy relationship with food is freeing, and I love to share! I have a lot to say on the subject :) From being in close relationship with some amazing women, I know I'm not alone. I will say, restriction mentality does lead down roads that don't end well. It's not about taking control of your life by controlling what you eat, but about taking charge of your health by making healthy choices.
Trying not to make this post a novel. I was handed a book at church last week. Our pastor is leading a 12-week transformation series. Legit! I am interested in this 40 day devotional. I do believe doing things Gods way leads to success. One of the first things I read is:
The most important decision you will make during your life is, how will you respond to Jesus Christ. Make a decision about how you will live and for whom you will live. Will it be Christ or for self?
I like that.
The scripture as far as food intake its based on Genesis 1:29 It's about eating the food God created in His original provision in the first garden.
Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food. And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds in the sky and all the creatures that move along the ground – everything that has the breath of life in it – I give every green plant for food. And it was so. Gen1:29(NIV)
Ok, hang on! This is suggesting to go on a plant based, diet, Lord!? C ya! Just saying. Or what's the new word...that cray! I am usually behind on the hip new lingo, my sister would prolly laugh at me for saying that :) Basically the plates suggested consist of: 50% leafy greens and raw veges, 20% lightly steamed or cooked veges, 20% bean, lentils, whole grains, stews, soups, small serving of animal products, 10% fruit and occasional bread portion of the meal. That's intense and against the grain of some popular diet trends. I'm not going to get into the subject of grains and meats/animal products right now. I will say... eggs, fish, chicken, and beef are a major source of my protein intake currently. Also, as far as grains.. I do love oatmeal. The original oats, not the instant stuff. I do want to clean my diet of processed foods and expand my recipe base. I've already learned some neat new healthy tricks and am looking forward to sharing. So 40 days...I'm going to do it, we'll see what happens :)



What I don't like about talking 'diets' is the tension and differing of opinions, judgment, and taking of sides that so easily happens. It's almost like talking religion or politics!
I'm going to quote Scott's book, this is from the preface:
This book is not about legalism, dietary laws, asceticism, or religious food restrictions. We have freedom and liberty in Christ, and we are not confined to strict dietary laws. Yet, diet is one of those closely held belief systems that can lead to arguments- sometimes heated- and then categorization followed by separation. Within Christian circles, it can be equally divisive as groups and individuals take a stand and attempt to defend their positions, often with unspoken assumptions and misunderstanding. Therefore, I have not named a diet, nor do I promote a named diet. I encourage you to return to foods that God created, supported by the Bible and science.

Before this becomes hard core, jk it's so not hard core. Before the commitment I'm taking a couple weeks prep phase because reviewing the material there are items I've never heard of, not many but enough. Like any change, it's a process. I plan on blogging the 40 days, not everyday but as the Lord leads. Honestly I wanted to give up when my attempt to make breakfast bars failed. Coconut flour does not work as a substitute for almond flour. I think every store in Tyler is out of almond flour, if it even exists. I will conquer the breakfast bars....but not today. Let me share with you a healthy creation that did work. Love smoothies and never would have thought to mix veges and fruit together in them. I mean I have never even heard of Kale! Parents, kids might like this one!


Nutrient dense foods included in the smoothie:
1/2 cup Unsweetened pomegranate juice: good source of folate, potassium, vitamin K, and antioxidants (one study found it to have higher antioxidant activity than red wine, grape juice, green tea, or acai juice)
antioxidant 101: They protect and repair cells from damage caused by free radicals. Helps strengthen the immune system. Found in beta-carotene, vitamin C, and vitamin E.
4-5 Strawberries: low in saturated fat, cholesterol, and sodium. Good source of folate, potassium, fiber, vitamin C, and manganese
1/2 cup Raspberries: vitamin K, magnesium, fiber, and manganese
1 leaf of stemmed Kale: fiber, protein, thiamine, riboflavin, folate, iron, magnesium, phosphorus, vitamin A, vitamin C, vitamin K, vitamin E, vitamin B6, calcium, potassium, copper, manganese, and omega 3 fatty acids. Contains antioxidant nutrients (including and unusual concentration of carotenoids and flavonoids, lutein, and beta-carotene) yeah! Contains anti-inflammatory nutrients, and anti-cancer nutrients (specifically helps against breast cancer, colon cancer, ovarian cancer, and bladder cancer). Another benefit, it helps lower cholesterol.
OMG, I <3 KALE!!!
Add some Ice Cubes to desired thickness


Wednesday, January 11, 2012

mom's turkey leg soup


I don't often post recepies, and those of you who know me, know I'm not a huge fan of the kitchen ;)  My mama taught me how to make this and for someone who doesn't like to spend a ton of time in the kitchen it's def do-able, and healthy.   Another bonus.. it isn't super expensive!  Turkey legs are cheap, it can be done under $12 and makes 6-7 meals!!  Since I usually cook for one, I eat a couple meals and freeze the rest.

Ingredients:  turkey legs, chicken broth, veges, and seasoning
Cook time: 6-8 hours in crock pot on low

1-  Cover the legs in water and heat (low heat) on the stove for a couple hours.  The night before makes it easier, then refergerate.  The next day warm it up again and the meat comes right off the bone, you can leave the skin out.  Add the meat and turkey broth to the pot.

2-  Add veges.  I used:  diced tomatoes, carrots, celery, onion, spinach, and black beans

3-  Add seasoning.  I used:  basil, oregano, parsley, sea salt, ground black pepper, and 2 bay leaves

4-  Add chicken broth

5- Let it sit in the cooker for 6-8 hours & enjoy

i HEART yummy soup when its chilly out :D

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

new years thoughts

Let me just start by saying December 2011 was one of the strangest months of my life. I'm telling you the Lord messed up my view of timing and time in general. Along with time, there were some mindset shifts. One big one was old mindsets are a false sense of comfort. My old way of doing things and dealing with things no longer flies. I knew this was true, now truth is becoming my reality. I'm going to spare you from details and say I'm also not perfect but His grace is more than enough. His grace is continuing to perfect me until I'm running in the door of heaven.

I don't mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have no achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us. Philippians 3:12-14

Backing up a little, going forward indeed, just sharing what the Lord has been teaching me. Late November He started laying on my heart the importance of relationship. It started with the revelation of God sending His son (father/son relationship) to reconcile our relationship with God (now we are in father/son or daughter relationship with God). He is all about relationship with Him first and others next. When we are in a committed relationship with God our relationships with others have opportunity to take on more depth and meaning.  Since the love of God is true love I want to be full of Him so I can love others with the love of Christ. When we try to obey God without relationship it becomes following rules and regulations. Doing good deeds out of our own strength becomes acts of righteousness, when Jesus said we can do increasingly more in His strength.

For no one can ever be made right with God by doing what the law commands. The law simply shows us how sinful we are. But now God has shown us a way to be made right with him without keeping the requirements of the law, as was promised in the writings of Moses and the prophets long ago. We are made right with God by placing our faith in Jesus Christ. And this is true for everyone who believes, no matter who we are. Romans 3:20-22

I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. John 14:12

Watch out! Don't do your good deeds publicly, to be admired by others, for you will lose the reward from your Father in heaven. When you give to someone in need, don't do as the hypocrites do- blowing trumpets in the synagogues and streets to call attention to their acts of charity! I tell you the truth, they have received all the reward they will ever get. But when you give to someone in need, don't let your left hand know what your right hand is doing. Give your gifts in private, and your Father, who sees everything, will reward you. Matthew 6:1-4

Still on relationship here. I'm reading Captivating right now and I can only handle a couple pages atta time! From Captivating...
GODS HEART FOR RELATIONSHIP
The vast desire and capacity a woman has for intimate relationships tells us of God's vast desire and capacity for intimate relationships. In fact, this may be the most important thing we ever learn about God – that he yearns for relationship with us. “Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God” (John 17:3). The whole story of the Bible is a love story between God and his people. He yearns for us. He cares. He has a tender heart. (pg. 29)

When you love someone you don't want to hurt them. However, offense seems to happen at some point in relationship regardless of if it's intentional or not. To the measure we forgive others we are forgiven. (Matthew 6:14&15) Weather or not it seems like others are taking advantage of grace is between them and the Lord.  Do we trust the Lord with our offense? Anyway, when we love God with all our heart obedience flows out of intimacy. I want to know the Lord like that. Intimacy over bondage to the law of sin and death.

Well, on to the calendar year 2012. God and timing just makes me smile now. I asked the Lord a couple nights ago to tell me something I don't know. He said let go of complete control. Yeah. I'm pretty sure that was Him. So waiting and trusting. Trusting and moving. What does it mean to really live anyway, because I want to live!  In Him is true life right?  This is life that shines the light of Jesus. (John 1:4&5) I want to be close, close to His side. So heaven is real, and death is a lie...

Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him and he will help you. Psalm 37:5

Yesterday I was rushing to prepare food in between clients and sliced my finger chopping stuff. OMG it hurt so bad and I was so mad at myself for rushing. Okay so lesson learned...slow down ;) I was considering going to get stitches but whatevs I think I'm good. Then it really hit me. I was being such a baby over my wounded finger. It is pretty deep and it hurt bad. Physically that pain was nothing compared to the wounds Jesus must have suffered for my sins. I was like oh my god Lord the price you paid for my freedom because of my offense is too much for me to grasp. He did that for me, do I really grasp the gift of the cross. To top it off he cares about my wound, my little cut finger. He took the punishment for my offense.

But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God's path to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all. Isaiah 53:5&6

God paid a high price for you, so don't be enslaved by the world. 1Corinthians 7:23

When I was working out the other day this song by Hillsong got my attention:

Beautiful Exchange

Trading your life
for my offenses
for my redemption, you carried the blame

Breaking the curse
of our condition
Perfection took our place

When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange