ok, i surrender

The past couple weeks I have been having a hard time with surrender. As much as I wanted to lay everything down at the altar, I just couldn't let go. As much as it sounds good to say “yeah, I trust the Lord” I knew I couldn't make that statement in complete honesty. What it comes down to is I might not trust Gods heart towards me. That if I really surrender I might not like what comes next.

So maybe if I get down on my knees, then I'll feel it. Nope. I got up and wondered why did it used to be so easy just to give it all. Then I got a text from a friend (who btw has no idea what is going on in my life). The text says...have you surrendered every part of you? Literally right after I got up. One of those moments that you know God is totally in all this. So I'm like great, God's totally letting me know he's there and I'm still fighting letting go.

In worship the following day I started to realize that surrender sometimes is like forgiveness. You might not feel it, but it is a choice. Yield your heart to surrender even though there are no warm fuzzy feelings to go along with it. Choose to surrender even when there is a pull that is saying no the other way is better. Choose to surrender even if you don't feel like it. Choose to surrender even if what comes next might be uncomfortable. Choose to surrender your will and your dreams and your desires and experience PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING.

He leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Psalm23

Take delight in the lord, and he will give you your heart's desires. Psalm37

For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. Zephaniah3:17

Perf song!  Thanks Judy!  Love kari and her sweet anointing!